I constantly do things or say things, and afterwards I think: hm probably shouldn't have done that.
But I allow myself to do this, to have free rein so to speak, to act without thinking to much.
I mean, for one, life's too short. I don't have time to ponder the complexities and possible outcomes of each and every choice I make. Sometimes it's just now or never.
But more important I trust myself to be able to deal with consequences, whatever those might be. I expect that I will be able to pick myself back up if I fall. I expect that I will see the silver lining in everything.
How do I know I will be able to recover, to fix things when things go wrong, to rise from everything relatively unscathed? Well, I don't know. I am making a complete ass out of you and me by assuming I am capable.
But the trick is to convince yourself that you will be able to handle the outcome no matter what happens.
Recap
Sitting by an open window with light flooding in, eating a gingerbread cookie with milk while wearing a comfy oversized sweater, listening to soothing jazz music while editing photos....it doesn't get much better than this If only someone was here to share this pleasant calm with me
Back in the days when I knew someone was coming over, I would set my desktop background to a giant picture of their face to thoroughly freak them out. Not sure why I don't do that anymore...
Boys suck. That being said, I sometimes wish I were a boy. Nooo, not so I can treat a girl right or something sappy like that. It's so I can wear a suit and tie and look as sleek and sexy as one of Justin Timberlake's music videos.
All the time I get calls from people that I’ve obviously contacted somehow sometime…but I call/email so many people I don’t remember them all. It’s the weirdest thing to have someone call you and refer to you by name while you’re stuck there trying to figure out who the heck you’re talking to for half the conversation.
I wish there was a soundhound app for scents. The woman sitting next to me today smelled really good and I am in the market for a perfume. I debated on whether asking her would be complimentary or creepy. I decided on the second. So now I can’t smell heavenly because I don’t know the name of the perfume.
That was the first time in my life that a telemarketer has called my house and asked if I spoke Chinese. So I said yes...probably should have said no lol
Other teachers who haven't already been introduced to me are always surprised to find out that I'm NOT a Chinese language instructor working at WLC. It's happened like 3 times. That's what happens when you work at a language center I guess...Asian problems.
Heard on the radio today: some dentist fired his assistant because he thought she was too attractive and was afraid he would start an affair with her. The supreme court ruled that this is not illegal sex discrimination because the firing was based on feelings and not sex. So i guess basically, dont be too attractive, you could get fired.
It’s amazing what a little coffee can do for me. I feel so much more energized and alive compared to yesterday! I just asked a 90 yr old woman to twirl around in her dress, and guess what, she did. And she never looked so young and beautiful.
Definitely just stood in the elevator for 15 seconds thinking about bug bites before i realized i hadnt press any buttons. Then i walked outside and saw what i thought was a man peeing on a bed of flowers in broad daylight but really he was just watering them with a hose at a very inconvenient angle for him
I am in love with the essence of a man I have never met. The music he creates puts me into a calm so still I don’t think I’d ever wake up. It raises up every doubt and insecurity, every memory and emotion, it touches all that is inside me. And when I hear his music, I feel so deeply that reality seems to fade away into a stream of consciousness. (olafur arnalds)
You know it's going to be a good day when you're walking to work and a random guy that just finished a run starts talking to you about how marathon runners shouldn't wear shirts because at the end of the race their nipples will be bleeding from all the friction. Despite that strange dose of knowledge, he was a really friendly firefighter.
So i dont believe in love at first sight. But apparently its possible for me to want to marry someone after only a few exchanges. Bonded over the exorcist-like whispering of the metro stop announcer with a guy that was tall and beautiful with the friendliest smile and kindest eyes. And by beautiful i mean he was handsome and looked like a million bucks in his white button down and blazer in hand. Completely out of my league but a girl can dream
Yesterday I felt like a kid in a candy store going to Lotte. I bought a carton of 18 eggs. And 24 hours later...there are only 6 eggs left. But at least I still have the 6 salted duck eggs and whole container of orange sushi fish eggs. I think I have a serious egg problem.
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